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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

on my way out

I am living on the edge of my sanity...death does not seem like such a terrible thing anymore. I can not even pray anymore...I am scared. When i go to sleep I have nightmares and when i am awake, i am constantly thinking of ways to die............I'm sorry I write such depressing blogs...can't think anymore. Will be back later. I'm out... later

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

love

Found this quote inspiring. Hope it inspires som
"Love is always bestowed as a gift - freely, willingly, and without expectation...We don't love to be loved; we love to love.
Leo Buscaglia
If we are able to see love in this beautiful and free-flowing way, then it's hard for those dreadfully destructive feelings of possessiveness and jealousy to take root in our hearts. Our love is so much more powerful when we ask nothing in return for it; when it is not part of some trade for promises of security; when it is vulnerable, genuine, and pure.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Asante

Thank you for all the encouraging pep talk I got...I will snap out of this eventually...God Bless.